Dec 21 2008
The Truth About Bulimia
Bulimia sucks. Anyone who is even considering the idea of bulimia needs to know some of the lies about the disease.
First of all you won’t lose weight, it WILL NOT make you thin. And I’m living proof. I am not fat but I am not thin either. I am, in fact, currently 15 pounds overweight (granted I had a baby a year ago). The reason bulimia is so hard to identify is because bulimics typically look healthy. I don’t know how many times I’ve told doctors or nurses not to tell me what I weigh when going for check ups, inevitably they ask why and I tell them because I have an eating disorder and knowing my weight freaks me out (I still know my weight…); I always get one of two responses “Oh okay no problem” from the people who know the truth about eating disorders or “You don’t look like you have an eating disorder” from the morons.
Second bulimia, or any eating disorder for that matter, can seriously tear your body apart. My hair has fallen out and become a lot thinner over time. My heart was in danger of failing because of the binge/purge cycle. My body became so used to skipping meals and binging only when I became so hungry I was going to faint that its hard for me to eat normally, it scares me at times. I also suffer from something called Body Dysmorphic Disorder where I see myself a lot bigger than I really am.
Recovery is a hard process. A scary process. It’s also what’s saving me. If it wasn’t for my family being right beside me and helping down this road I don’t know where I’d be and I’m glad I don’t know. I’m not going to lie its hard and scary as hell but its also worth it. If you’re reading this and you suffer from an eating disorder or you are even thinking about flirting around with one please go talk to someone. Anyone. People care and want to help. You’re worth it. We’re all worth it.
Eating Disorder Awareness and Prevention (EDAP)
1-800-931-2237
http://www.nationaleatingdisorders.org
