Beyond Bulimia

So I go to a doctor that is supposed to help me with my medications, supposed to.  Turns out the guy doesn’t deal with bipolar disorder, he’s a neurologist not a psychiatrist.  The only thing the guy did was to up my Cogentin (med for side effects caused by my mood stabilizer).  Upping the dose on my Cogentin made my vision go super blurry. There was a three hour period in which I could not see anything that was more than two inches from my face.  Completely frustrating and scary.

I’m now trying to get in with a psychiatrist in my area, any psychiatrist.  The shitty thing is that no doctor wants to see me if I’ve seen a psychiatrist/therapist in the last year, something to do with my insurance - if I’ve been to one doctor within the last year they won’t cover it. 

I go through my whole speech and every single doctor’s office that I’ve called in a 20 mile radius asks “Have you seen a therapist or psychiatrist in the past year?” 

I’m a bulimic bipolar what in the hell do you think.

Now correct me if I’m wrong but aren’t insurance companies there so when you need to go to a doctor you’re able to go to that doctor without paying an arm and a leg.  And I’m sorry but a mental issue is just as important as a physical issue.  My sanity’s on the line here!

I feel my self sway from one extreme to the other and its so frustrating.  At times I’m crying for no apparent reason other than that I can’t find the remote control.  I get easily frustrated with myself for being annoyed so easily (and I’m annoyed very easily).  Marc’s walking around on eggshells and O’s starting the terrible two’s early so I’m about at my wit’s end.  And we have a puppy that I’m trying to house train…luckily he’s catching on pretty quickly.

AAAHHH!

OK I feel better now.