Beyond Bulimia

I know skipping meals is a big no-no when you’re trying to lose weight but it is so tempting, eating disorder or not.  My mental math makes it so appealing: skip a meal + calories burned to function = lose weight.

Sadly this is not how it works and I know.  I used to only eat one or two meals a day at most when I got in these little restriction phases (therapy term 2 points), at most.  These past few weeks though I’ve been eating more along the lines of a normal food plan: breakfast, lunch, dinner with a snack or two thrown in depending on my hunger level.  Not only is it a lot more satisfying I’m actually starting to notice a change in my eating habits. 

I’m making healthier choices, drinking more water, exercising (but not over doing it) and its starting to work.  I have no clue how much weight I’ve lost because I haven’t stepped on a scale yet but I am noticing that my clothes are starting to fit better so that’s good.

As hard as it is to make myself eat at times, there are times I absolutely cannot stand the thought of putting one morsel of food into my mouth, I know that its healthier.  And when those bad times hit I ask for help or I look at O and remind myself that I need to eat, if not for me than for my family.